Friday, May 23, 2008

What's Going On

Last night was Miss Pink's preschool "graduation." It was cute and she was so proud of herself. But I didn't cry--I'm just not sentimental about things like that, and besides, I'm just happy she's going to kindergarten next year. When she was a newborn, my husband and I would lie in bed after we'd gotten her to sleep, knowing she was going to wake us up again in a few hours, and say, "Well, we kept her alive another day." Back then, it seemed an impossibly long time until she'd be a kindergartener. I count it as an accomplishment that we are all still alive and happy to be here.

Anyway, it was a little sad that Miss Pink's beloved teacher couldn't be there because she had gotten really sick. We all knew that for this teacher to miss the program, she had to be REALLY sick. Seriously, she is one of the best teachers I have ever met--and I was a teacher, so I've known quite a few good ones. She has a real gift with young children. So we were sorry not to say a last goodbye and to give her our gift in person. But she is coming to a classmate's pool party in a couple of weeks, so we will get to see her then.

I had a feeling the excitement of the last day of school was going to wear off for Miss P, since she loves school so much. And sure enough, that night there were real tears: "I miss Ms. Teacher! I am so sad that I don't get to see her anymore." I held her and empathized. "I know you miss her. I'll miss her too. I'm just glad you had such a good teacher that you feel this way about her."

By bedtime she was okay and finding out about the party today made her happy. I hope she loves school for a few more years at least.

Speaking of school, the preschool where Miss P has been going for three years decided to have a 2-year-old class this year! Last year they did two 3-year-old classes instead and the 3-day one never filled up, so now they will have a 2-day for both 2 and 3 year olds. (Was that confusing enough, with all the 2s and 3s?) Anyway, I had Mr. Blue on a waiting list at another school, but I wasn't pursuing any other schools. But when the school we already know and love told me they could take him next year, I jumped at the chance. Two mornings a week, four hours at a time... where do I sign up? Plus he is familiar with the school and always wants to play on the playground or with the toys in the classes when we go in. I asked him if he wants to go to school and he said, "Yis," without any hesitation at all.

One last thing--I met with my new psychiatrist today. (I've never had a psychiatrist before, so any psychiatrist would've been my first.) I feel really good about working with her. She was very helpful and understanding. We decided to up the dosage of my antidepressant one notch and see how that goes. Basically she thinks it was just a little slip back into the anxiety part of my depression and we are not going to let it go back any farther. Good to know.

I'm glad I have had support (both from y'all in the computer and in real life) to get this kind of help. Some people are not so lucky. A friend of a friend is really suffering from panic attacks right now, and our mutual friend (who has also been through the same thing) was encouraging her to see a psychiatrist and possibly go to counseling, but she is not ready to take that step. They don't have insurance and her husband didn't want to go that route for financial reasons. At first her doctor didn't want to prescribe anything but finally she got the courage to insist, so at least she is on an antidepressant. I am praying for her because I know how it feels to be in that kind of pain, and to wonder if you are ever going to get better. If you can remember her in your thoughts and prayers, I would really appreciate it.


  1. So fun, these transitions that our kids go through, and sometimes, over here at our place, a little scary. Really? No tears? I cary at anything. Pathetic, really. Glad you're on track with your new doctor. It's all sounding good and best thoughts to your friend. I'm not a prayer but I'm a heavy thinker and a little more positive "energy" can't hurt...

  2. um...not "cary" but cry...(guess I carried too many freaken boxes at work today...sore bones...sore brain...)

  3. I just love how you handled your sweet little one's missing her teacher. I remember when I first left my older son in his Kindergarten class and how I cried all the way home...I remember it like it was was 1977...also, glad you're getting your health in order...we all owe it to ourselves to keep on top of things, including new treatments and any (and I do mean ANY) feedback from actual patients who have used said treatments. I'm pulling for you, and your friend. Tell her to smile even when she doesn't feel like it...not a crazy manic smile so people wonder exactly what is up with her, just enough to lift the corners of her lips so that it reaches her eyes.

  4. Your friend is definitely in my thoughts and prayers. It's such a scary thing when you can't be "yourself".

    I am so glad you clicked with your new Doc.

    The transition from preschool to K can be very emotional from some kids. Your daughter is very aware and you handled it flawlessly.

    What are you going to do with your extra 8 hours a week? :)

  5. Awww, it's hard to say goodbye to a teacher you've loved so much. It sounds like you handled it so well, though. And Mr. B getting to go two days a week!!! That's awesome!

    I'm so sorry your friend is struggling right now, but it sounds like she has friends to talk to (which sometimes can help just as much as a doctor would). The antidepressant should help her alot.

  6. I'm so glad the first meeting went well. Good luck to you! We're all pulling for you.